How To: Make me cry like a baby

Shit. Just got back from the vet who tells me that my 12-year-old Golden Retriever, aka my eldest child, is dying. Cancer of the spleen, she's got a month, maybe 2 at the outside. Here's a prescription for something to help make her comfortable until then.

Just shit. I'm sitting here sobbing even though she's here just like she was yesterday when she wasn't dying. She's not dead. She can't figure out why I'm upset so she's pacing and nosing me, trying to make me feel better. I just cry more.

My keyboard is not designed to withstand tears, so I'll come back later.